Remain closed? Or slightly open.
I admit i haven’t been nice to people since a few years back..don’t even remember when all this started…call me hypocrite cause I find ppl these days are so fake…call me cynical…anti-social…or I’m just justifying myself. Whatever it is….
The fact is I haven’t much surrounded or even get myself surrounded by people in a function or things of that sort since leaving f5? f6? yeap around then… I’m living a life of my own and the truth is I’m loving it.
I can roam anywhere I like , anytime, do any crazy thing I fancy without needing to account for it to anyone….that includes cancelling my plans at the very last minute. Who’s there to inform, to reason it out, to apologize, to mend things up…. nope.. nothing… no strings attached… no loose ends to tie whatsoever.
Ironically, realizing this, I sorta think I need a change this year. I should start opening up my door this year. Not very wide, but should let in 3 or 4 to-be close friends. Amid the fact that I like being by myself, I should also build and strengthen a close knitted circle of friends. Sincere ones of course. Haven’t known what to expect out of it but something to explore. Otherwise, why others enjoying the company of their friends. Am I losing out or something or what? So many that they only have time for them. And why is there worship songs like ‘That’s What Friends Are For’ and the tv show which needs no introducing, F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
What are friends for? You tell me more.
To learn things from? Nola, books and internet have proven time and time again my best learning source.
To have a shoulder to cry on? That’s so not me.
To go out and dine with? That’s a waste of time, eat fast , finish fast. In fact,home food is so much cheaper , cleaner and oil free(self cooked).
To have someone to talk to? I x talk, sorry, waste my energy, wanna talk, msn la, can go off anytime and no need full eye contact and concentration. So tiring looking at ppl in d eyes and stay interested and to guard myself from sending body language which betray my words.
February 1st, 2008 at 10:54 am
Pure Fragrance,
Will you forgive me if I take a moment to wax philosophic? Although almost everyone should be our friend, a really good friend is someone that has qualities that I admire, that I want. For the friendship to really “take”, they have to feel the same way about me. When we’re together we inspire each other to be greater than we are. When we’re together we’re greater than the sum of the two of us. YOU have qualities that I admire. Body language betraying your words will be understood and accepted by any good friend.
BBGary
February 1st, 2008 at 6:19 pm
Woo….that’s inspiring, big bro. Thanks!